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In 2025, I found myself
wrestling with frustration that

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God was not giving me joy.
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me what was actually happening.
It wasn’t that he was

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withholding joy, it was that I
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What followed was an invitation
to spend 30 days looking at 30

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passages on Joy and turning it
into a devotional called

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Rejecting Joy No longer.
You’d think I would have learned

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that coming into 2026, I was
wrestling with hope.

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God, why are you making me so
hopeless?

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And God very patiently let me
know the reality.

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He wasn’t withholding hope.
I was rejecting it.

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And so now here I am, spending
30 days looking at 30 passages

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on hope.
And my hope is that this

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encourages you.
One thing that’s different this

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year is I felt like God was
inviting me to be publicly

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transparent with my processing.
To actually go live on social

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media, pull out a random verse,
and then read and process

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through it on camera.
This isn’t me coming to you as

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an expert on hope, but me coming
to you honestly as someone

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wrestling with hope.
And by witnessing that some of

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you might feel less alone, may
feel seen and understood, may

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end up being encouraged in a way
that is far deeper than the best

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platitude.
So join me as I spend 30 days

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navigating 30 passages on Hope.
This is day 22.

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You’re listening to episode 229
of the Where Did You See God

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podcast.
Oh my God, I want to thank you

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that you are God and you are
good and for the ways that you

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move and right now I just looked
up this space to process your

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word, particularly pertaining to
hope.

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And so Holy Spirit, guide my
fingers to verse, guide my

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thoughts to what it is that you
want to say what spirit give me

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and those listening ears to hear
so that we don’t just come up

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with good ideas, but we discern
what’s actually true about hope,

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particularly in this time in our
lives.

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I experimentally name Amen.
This is the one right here.

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Oh, it’s tiny.
Been hanging around in Psalms,

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Psalm 62, five for God alone.
Oh my soul wait in silence, for

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my hope is from him.
For God alone.

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Oh my soul wait in silence, for
my hope is from Him.

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Yes, you did detect some
laughter.

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It’s that wait in silence part.
That is not often what we do.

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We struggle to wait, but even
when we’re waiting, we are not

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silent because we want to know
God.

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Where are you?
We’re like David.

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How long, O Lord, will you
forget me forever?

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So let’s find out, is this
David?

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Yep, this is David.
Let’s get the bigger context of

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what David’s saying in Psalm 62.
This is for the director of

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music for Judithon, a Psalm of
David.

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Truly my soul finds rest in God.
My salvation comes from Him.

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Truly He is my rock and my
salvation.

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He is my fortress.
I will never be shaken.

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How long will you assault me?
Would all of you throw me down

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this leaning wall, this
tottering fence?

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Surely they attend to topple me
from my lofty place.

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They take delight in lies.
With their mouths they bless,

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but in their hearts they curse.
Yes, my soul find rest in God.

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My hope comes from Him.
Truly.

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He is my rock and my salvation.
He is my fortress.

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I will never be shaken.
My salvation and my honor depend

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on God.
He is my mighty rock, my refuge.

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Trust in Him at all times, you
people, Pour out your hearts to

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Him, for God is our refuge.
Surely the lowborn are but a

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breath.
The highborn are but a lie.

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If weighed on a balance.
They are nothing.

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Together they are only a breath.
Do not trust an extortion, or

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put vain hope and stolen goods.
Though your riches increase, do

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not set your heart on them.
One thing God has spoken, two

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things I’ve heard.
Power belongs to you God, and

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with you Lord is unfailing love,
and you reward everyone

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according to what they have
done.

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There is that one section
starting in verse 9.

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Surely the low born or but a
breath, the high born or but a

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lie.
If weighed together they are

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only a breath.
Do not trust an extortion or put

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vain hope and stolen goods.
Though your riches increase, do

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not set your heart on them.
Was it yesterday we were talking

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about what we put our hope in,
that anything but God will be

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insufficient, will not satisfy.
We’ll let you down.

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This just double s down on that
idea that there’s a lot of

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things that we can lean on.
But the psalmist, but David

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repeats this refrain.
Truly my soul finds rest in God.

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My self agent comes from him.
Truly He is my rock and my

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salvation.
He is my fortress.

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I will never be shaken.
He says it again and 5:00 and

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6:00, but 5, the verse we’re
focusing on is interesting

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because verse one truly my soul
finds rest in God.

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My salvation comes from him.
That just sounds like a classic

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Psalm line.
David’s just naming a spiritual

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reality.
He’s singing it.

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It’s a good praise song.
Verse 5, though, is not directed

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at people to hear, yes, my soul,
like he’s talking to his soul.

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We talked about this recently
too, that sometimes the soul

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needs a reminder.
Psalm 4211 and Psalm 42, Five,

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Why are you downcast on my soul?
Why disturbed within me?

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Once again, David’s being is
trying to bolster his soul,

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which is struggling, struggling
because he’s being assaulted.

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People who bless when people are
looking are cursing in their

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hearts at him.
Surely they intend to topple me.

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And he’s telling his soul, hey
soul, find rest in God.

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My hope comes from him.
So again, I want to read these

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lines back-to-back.
Truly, my soul finds rest in

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God.
My salvation comes from him.

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And yes, my soul find rest in
God.

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My hope comes from him.
But can you hear the, the

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difference there?
I think this is really

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important.
This is the difference between

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just naming platitudes and
naming a reality as a way to

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grab hold of it.
He’s saying this reality.

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He’s saying my, my soul finds
rest in God.

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He’s naming it.
But then he has to go to his

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soul and say, yes, my soul, find
rest in God.

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That’s where hope comes from.
I don’t know, just this tenuous

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place that we live that at any
given point some portion of our

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being can become misaligned, can
begin to struggle in doubt.

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And that guy’s designed us in
such a way that at no point does

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100% of us, 100% of our being
fall into that place.

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Even if there’s like 1% of us
that’s holding, finding, resting

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God, trusting Him for hope,
there’s always at least that 1%.

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But the flip side is, I don’t
know that we’re ever going to

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hit 100% in our current state.
When we are in eternity with

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God, we see Him not as in a
mirror dimly, but as face to

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face.
Then all of us will finally

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fully understand and know and be
fully bought in and we will hit

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100%.
So put another way, if you’re

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struggling because you feel like
ah, like my soul should get this

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and my soul doesn’t seem to get
this, like that’s OK.

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Like that’s actually how it is
going to be how it is.

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God is aware of this.
So he’s not judging you for

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wrestling.
Oh interesting.

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I’m sorry, I got distracted
because the ESB is very

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different because what I was
going to say is God’s OK if

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we’re not waiting in silence for
him.

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And then I was like, wait a
minute, that wasn’t in the

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verse.
And I look back and it’s in the

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ESV version.
NIV yes, my soul find rest in

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God.
My hope comes from him.

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And then the ESV says for God
alone, Oh my soul wait in

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silence for my hope is from him.
And that is, that is really

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different and really important
because he’s still calling out

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to the soul.
He’s still saying, look, my

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soul, just hold up.
I need you to listen.

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Wait in silence for only God.
God’s the one that you should be

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waiting for and trusting on and,
and wait in silence for him like

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this silence piece.
I, I am curious.

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Let’s go on a little journey,
folks.

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We got time.
You’re not going anywhere.

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Psalm 62 five.
All right, so let’s go to the

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Hebrew text analysis.
And I’m so curious why NIV did

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not go that direction.
I’m not even going to try to

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accurately pronounce the Hebrew
word.

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It’s not giving me the way to
pronounce it.

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It looks like daumi.
So the ESV and the NASV

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translate that as wait in
silence, while the KJVINTNIV

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simply make it wait.
There is this emphasis in those

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other versions on it being God
alone, being the thing that we

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are waiting on holding to.
But it is intriguing.

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It is intriguing, all right.
The root of this word damam.

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To be silent, to be still, to
cease, to be quiet.

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KJB says cease, be cut down for
bear, hold peace, quiet, self

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rest.
Be silent.

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Keep or be put to silence.
Be or stand still.

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Tarry, wait.
To be dumb, to be astonished, to

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stop.
Also to perish.

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Wow.
All right, so there’s a lot we

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can do with this.
The root of this word appears

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about 30 times in the Hebrew
Scriptures.

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It paints a picture of sudden or
deliberate stillness, sudden or

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deliberate stillness, and a
resting hush that can arise from

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reverence, shock, grief,
restraint, or utter defeat.

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The context cluster around
worship, waiting, judgment,

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lament, and self-control.
The most elevated use calls all

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creation to hush before the
presence of the Lord.

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Have a kick. 220.
The Lord is in his holy temple.

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Let all the earth be silent
before him.

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Zephaniah 17 Be silent in the
presence of the Lord God, for

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the day of the Lord is near.
Zechariah 213 Be silent, O all

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flesh, before the Lord, for he
has roused himself from His holy

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dwelling.
Isaiah 41 One.

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Even the distant coastlines must
be silent when the Lord convenes

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His courtroom.
In these passages, silence

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becomes an act of Worshipful
submission, acknowledging God’s

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sovereign majesty and final
word.

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This says it frequently marks
the inward calm of faith And God

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alone my soul finds rest.
My salvation comes from Him.

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Rest and God alone, O my soul,
for my hope comes from Him.

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Be still before the Lord, and
wait patiently for Him.

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It is good to wait quietly for
the salvation of the Lord.

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I have calmed and quieted my
soul like a wing child with its

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mother.
The vocabulary of silence here

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is not passive resignation, but
confident expectation.

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It instructs believers to lay
down anxious striving and

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entrust the outcome to God’s
timing.

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Yes, my soul find rest in God.
My hope comes from him for God

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alone.
O my soul, wait in silence, for

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my hope is from Him.
The important element here.

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I love that Worshipful
submission, not just a Be quiet.

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It’s not what this is.
It is saying God is our source

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of hope and when we are not
quiet it is indicating our

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disbelief in that.
An understandable disbelief.

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Mind you, even David is doing
this fine.

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Rest in God.
How long will you assault me?

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Right.
Like even David is wrestling

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with this idea of waiting in
silence.

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It is OK if it is a struggle to
have a Worshipful submission to

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the God of hope.
What David is demonstrating is

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this coming back to it, coming
back to it.

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Truly, my soul finds rest.
How long will you assault me?

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Yes, my soul, find rest in God.
When we find that we are not

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waiting in silence, when we are
struggling to believe hope is

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from God, reminding ourselves,
reiterating what is true, even

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if it doesn’t seem true, can get
us back into that place, Can

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build that ability to cultivate
Worshipful submission.

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A bounce between the NIV and the
ESV.

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Throughout my life lately, I’ve
been less ESV and more NIV.

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In this case, the wording can be
a little confusing, but I do

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like that it holds to that
translation of the word, the

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root of which is the mom to
capture.

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Not just waiting, but waiting
with this Worshipful submission

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that as much as we want to call
things out and cry things out,

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we are choosing instead to say I
believe that God knows.

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I believe that God sees.
I believe that God can move, and

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the fact that he’s not moving
means that he is doing something

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different.
So though I disagree, I’m going

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to defer to his judgement.
It’s a hard thing to do.

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And again, David shows us that
it’s OK when we struggle to do

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it.
Perfection here is not the

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point.
Coming back to God is so Psalm

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62 five yes, my soul find rest
in God.

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My hope comes from him and for
God alone O my soul wait in

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silence for my hope is from him.
Father God, we just thank you

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that you are God and you are
good.

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We acknowledge that it’s very
hard for us to wait and it’s

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even harder for us to wait in
silence.

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The Holy Spirit move in the ways
that we needed to stir up the

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things that are causing us to
doubt, to question, to fear,

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like gold and the furnace.
Let that rise up and like draw

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us just scrape it off.
We want to be able to have

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Worshipful reverend submission
and we acknowledge that we

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struggle to do that bolster our
souls today.

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Let’s parents only name Amen.